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[19 Oct 2007|07:43pm]
so amsa did an explain 5 interests thing, and now I'm doing the ones she chose for me.

1. air fresheners - they smell good. thats pretty much it.

2. being superman - back in high school, I one time went to a party wearing a superman beanie. after that they all only called me superman...not amanda, just superman. so it was my nickname, and it was fun.

3. blaze the goat - this one is a long story that pretty much no one that lauren will understand, but I'll try. We had to write a story for comparative religion class about a creation myth. We wrote about a happy land called hannah lee, run by the benevolent ruler, Blaze the Goat. We found it hilarious.

4. going under the net - me and becca went tubing at liberty one year, and our tube didn't stop at the bottom of the hill, went over the bump, and under the security net at the bottom. We had to grab branches to stop ourselves from flying down the side of the mountian. It was crazy. and as you can tell from the past 3 interests, I haven't updated my profile in quite a while.

5. i-dont-believe-in lists - I have a comprehensive list of things I don't believe in. At the top is gravity and stop signs. If you really want to know the rest, let me know.

anyone else wanna do it? I'll choose 5 for ya

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priorities [09 Oct 2007|04:28pm]
Over the weekend my parents attended a meeting at their church about the new building the church wants to build. Phase 1 has been completed (offices, classrooms, a kitchen, bathrooms, fellowship hall) and they're discussing fundraising for building Phase 2. It will include a sanctuary, classrooms, and offices.
Estimated cost? $23 MILLION
For a building.
Keep in mind they have a perfectly good church building, they just want a nicer, bigger one.
Just for reference...

and instead of doing any of those, or numerous other things that much money could buy, they're building a church.
because there aren't enough of those for the upper-middle class families of northern virginia.
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[23 Sep 2007|01:46am]
honestly...im really just bored. with everything.
and i have no idea what to do about it.
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[09 Sep 2007|01:02am]
I'm getting restless again. I'm home for 2 weeks, and it starts. I think I'm just scared I'll fall into another pointless routine with my life again. The more I travel, the more I fear that. Theres almost nothing I dread more than a life of routine. Theres just no variety...no change.
I feel like I should be doing something more with my time than just working and hanging out. I want to give something. Not money...I have none. But time...effort...something. It comes from witnessing 3rd world countries...at least I think it does. I've always wanted to help others with my life, but only in the past few years (after I've really begun my travels) has it become this real immediate desire. I'm going to do something. Its hard to do a lot of what I want without a degree (ive already had job offers...for after I graduate college), but I know I can do something. I feel like I'm wasting my time, and theres so much that needs to be done.

I'm figuring all this out in my head, and felt the need to write it out.
more to come?
inside my head

[12 Aug 2007|01:57pm]
its freezing cold today. you´d think when you´re this close to the equator it´d be warm. and you´d be wrong. most of ecuador is pretty high up, and therefore its cold. im currently in a town called baños, situated at the foot of an active volcano. its pretty sweet. if it wasn´t pouring rain today i´d be able to see it.
we went out to a bar last night, and went dancing. if you know me well, you know how drunk i need to be to dance...so yea. it was good times though. apparently i can speak spanish better when im drunk than when im sober. ive come to the conclusion that every latino person can dance. really well. its not fair.
i have a week left in the amazon, and im actually pretty sad that im leaving. everything is just so peaceful there. and its gorgeous. but then im heading to the beach, so i guess its all good. im going to attempt surfing. we´ll see how that goes...hahaha
and now its time to catch my bus back to the jungle.
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[04 Aug 2007|04:41pm]
life is sweet right now.
i send mad love to each and every one of you from the amazon.
inside my head

[28 Jul 2007|04:17pm]
 so I´m in ecuador. and its awesome.
I took a week long cruise down the Napo River, which is one of the main 2 tributaries to the Amazon.
it was awesome. I saw sweet animals like monkeys and caimans, and swam with pirahanas.
made friends with the crew and learned ecuadorian drinking games.
now im living at a vounteer place in the amazon.
taking care of animals. lots of monkeys and birds. and kittens.
life is sweet.
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I know I never update, sorry. [22 Jun 2007|01:16pm]
my sister is getting married on Sunday.
my house is freaking insane right now.
I'm happy for her and all, but I can't wait til this is all over.
leaving for south america around the 10th (no exact day yet, checking flights).
If you live near me, we should prolly hang out.
Overall, life is pretty good for me right now:)
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[08 May 2007|01:56am]
this is pretty much killing me.
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[27 Apr 2007|06:19pm]
I feel like things are building up to something in my life.
I'm not sure what it is, but it seems like its going to be either a success or a complete and total failure.
And I'm surprisingly ok with it. 
Maybe I'm just ready for something to change.
I get restless far too easily.
inside my head

I found these in my room while cleaning [01 Apr 2007|09:50pm]
[ mood | nostalgic ]

I miss thisCollapse )

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[28 Mar 2007|10:05pm]
I've got an idea.
Its kinda consuming me at the moment, and I really want it to happen.
Its big though, quite probably too big for me.
I don't want to change the world, thats not for me.
I just want to help people, make their lives better.
3 voices| inside my head

la la land [07 Mar 2007|04:20am]
[ mood | exhausted ]

I can't even process everything that has happened in the past 24 hours.
LA is mostly awesome.

1 voice| inside my head

[04 Mar 2007|09:35pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

I'm in LA.
its 6:36pm here, but my body is telling me its almost 10pm, and I've been awake since 4 on very little sleep.
In 12 hours I'll be in the studio audience for the Price Is Right.
Maybe one of us will get on the show.
I love the weather here.

1 voice| inside my head

[11 Feb 2007|07:40pm]

I'm stranded at UVA because my car key disappeared.
good thing I have nowhere to be tomorrow.

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[05 Feb 2007|10:51pm]
[ mood | lazy ]

I bought new furniture for my room. A sweet black futon and a giant bookcase thing. I'm pretty happy with it. All my previous furniture has been hand-me-downs. And I'm getting a new dresser and new bed soon. Hopefully.

Saw As Tall As Lions on Saturday. Last time I saw them was like...the summer. They played in baltimore in november, but I was in london. The show was just as awesome as always. Those guys have some serious talent. The vocals were a little low, which was a shame considering how great of a voice Dan has, but it was still great. Minus the jackasses in the crowd. But whatever. It was still good. And fuckin freezing in maryland. but then again it was freezing today too.

A couple weeks ago me and Amsa drove up to jersey to see TREOS. Made new friends, heard new songs, got free shirt, had an all around good time. But anyways, I've been reading a lot about the meaning behind the name of their next cd, The Earth Sings Mi Fa Mi. Its seriously awesome. Just google it. Great concept. And the cd will be great too. I really can't wait til it comes out. I think Brian is a good new addition.

AND I get to see TAI with everyone soon. Thats just pretty much awesome:)

I still haven't taken the new Brand New out of my cd player, except when we were driving to maryland and jersey, and only when there were other people in my car. I think I'm straight up addicted. Although, the new Melee might just have to take its place. Its amazing.

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something I need to get off my chest [29 Jan 2007|01:37am]
[ mood | distressed ]

I've just watched one of the most disturbing movies of my life.

If you read all, or even half of this, I'm impressed.
If you haven't, thats okay too.
But go watch Jesus Camp. Its definitely interesting.
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here's looking at you, kid [17 Jan 2007|09:40pm]
[ mood | calm ]

fill this out people. its fun. DO IT!
and yes, i mean you.

01. Can you cook?
02. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator?
03. What talent do you wish you had?
04. Favorite place?
05. Favorite vegetable?
06. What was the last book you read?
07. Are you Dirty or Clean?
08. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
09. Worst Habit?
10. How did we meet?
11. What's your philosophy on life?
12. Negative or Optimistic?
13. What was your dream growing up?
14. What is the best thing that ever happened to you?
15. What was your first impression of me?
16. Tell me one weird fact about you:
17. Whats your favorite memory of us?
18. Tell me your favorite joke:
19. Have you ever kept anything from me?
20. What do you think of me as a Person?
21. Do you think I'm sane or insane?
22. Would you cry for me if I died?
23. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
24. If you could change anything about me, would you?
25. How do you fall asleep?
26. Ever gotten angry with me?
27. Would you go on a blind date if I set you up?
28. If you had one day to live, what would you do?
29. A million bucks.. what would you do with it?
30. What is your worst fear?
31. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
32. Can you sing or dance?
33. In one word, how would you describe me? Be honest....
34. Will you repost this so I can fill it out?

I start classes tomorrow. I need to get back into that school mindset. I'm just so...eh. I dunno.
Ive been thinking a lot about, well, life. My thoughts lead me in interesting directions. Maybe later I'll share some, I'm not sure I'm ready to right now.

1 voice| inside my head

[14 Jan 2007|04:41pm]
[ mood | bored ]

plane tickets are bought.
i'll be in LA march 4-8th.
i'm going on the price is right.
with bob barker.
hells yea!

go watch the movie Crank.
its pretty much awesome.

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if they don't put me away, it'll be a miracle [09 Jan 2007|12:28am]
[ mood | blah ]

not much going on lately.
working tons.
christmas was sweet, got a new laptop and a nice sleeping bag from "annonymous in pittsburgh"
new years was pretty tight. i fell down a lot. thats kinda all you need to know.

I'm getting mad excited for upcomming plans.
- beginning of march: LA for the Price is Right
- mid april: Brand New mini-east coast excursion
- end of june: Nichole's wedding
- july-august: Ecuador and Peru. you should come with me.
I'm becomming a master at cheap airfare/travel

I've gotten lots of emails lately from people who I haven't talked to in FOREVER. Its really great to hear from all these people though. I never realized how broad my scope was. Anyone wanna give me thousands of dollars so I can go visit everyone? ok, thanks.

I picked out this bridesmaids dress for my sister's wedding. And she loves it, so we're going with it.

so as you can tell, my life has been boring lately, but has high hopes of getting more entertaining.
thats why I don't update.
sorry guys.

i can't stop thinking about it and its driving me crazy.

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